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I want to carve my heart from my chest
to prove that I don't love you any more.

I want to show you the place your name was
and show you the scar tissue that remains

I want to watch your eyes as you see
that I'm still bleeding for you.

I want to say your heart would break
or that mine would, but mine's long since gone
replaced by stone, replaced by snow.

I truly hope you're happy and you've forgotten me
because I'm left with the cold and the stone.
Because I'm left alone.

I'm a discarded toy again, tossed back into the box
I'm rags and frayed stitches, I'm missing pieces
I'm blaming you for everything-
because I've forgotten how to feel anything beside this.

I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm wrathful, I'm raging, I'm scared,
I'm broken, I'm alone, I'm a wreckage, I'm small, I'm cold,
I'm bitter, I'm hateful, I'm miserable
& I'm forgetting what it's like to be me.

I still want to burn the book, watch the fire consume the words
maybe I'll smile a broken smile, something bitter and hateful
like I've become.
It's taken me this long to admit to it.

I want to scream, which is new to me
I want to scream in pure vitriolic hate.
Hate for the way I feel, hate for myself.

I want to scream in rage,
it's all I have left
my hatred, my anger.

It's not your fault.

Have it back, I don't want it any more.
It's not your fault.
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KdaAnimefan Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Writer
Well it has the same angst and anger I've felt from previous works of yours, so that shows your able to bring those feelings out consistently
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CaptainOzz Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013
Angst? No, this is exhaustion, rage, the kinda tired hate you have when there's nothing left.
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KdaAnimefan Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Writer
My mistake, they can feel similar and angst is more common. this a piece inspired by a muse or by reality?
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CaptainOzz Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013
You ask these questions, you make these assumptions... You fail, however, to live, to learn, to do, to be. Honestly, ask yourself, from what I've replied, do you think I want to be questioned?...
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KdaAnimefan Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Writer
not particularly
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CaptainOzz Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013
Then why pursue such an avenue?
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KdaAnimefan Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2013  Student Writer
Cause normally when talking to people I don't get that resistance.

It is noteworthy though that your annoyance in your last comment sparked a muse in me, wrote a short one act play, doubt you'd care to read it though.
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CaptainOzz Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013
You'd be correct, I don't.
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